TOXIC LOVE PART 3

Loving You Felt Like Walking on Glass…

I Watched My Words,

I Watched My Tone,

I Watched My Feelings…

Afraid One Wrong Move Would Make You Pull Away Again.

Love Shouldn’t Feel Like That.

I Loved You in A Language You Never Learned to Speak,

I Loved You Quietly, So You Could Stay Loudly with Someone Else,

I Stayed Silent So Your Happiness Wouldn’t Hear My Pain,

I Clapped for Your Love Story While Mine Was Falling Apart.

I Was Writing Us While You Were Reading Someone Else.

I Became Okay with Being Unseen, As Long as You Were Okay,

I Swallowed My Words So You Could Speak Freely About Someone Else,

I Learned to Smile at The Things That Were Breaking Me,

I Celebrated You, Even When It Cost Me Myself,

I Made Peace with Being the Love You Never Noticed…

And Somehow, That Silence Felt Like Happiness.

I Loved Without Protection,

I Didn’t Know I Needed Armour,

Love Shouldn’t Require Survival Skills,

And Yet Here I Am…

Because I Loved Like I Was Staying Forever,

And They Loved Like They Could Leave Anytime.

I Stayed Longer Than I Should Have,

Because I Believed Love Meant Endurance.

You Left the Moment It Got Hard.

That Imbalance Hurt More Than the Goodbye.

You Know…

Love Is Not About What You Say,

Love Is About What You Do.

Will I Ever Do It Again?

I Don’t Truly Know…

But Next Time, I Won’t Build My Home In Someone Else’s Hands.

If It Is Destroying You, It Is Not Love.

Remember;

They Will Stab You in The Lungs and Then Ask Why You Have Trouble Breathing.

Published by Eva Mwangi